Ten years ago, I landed a summer job at a daycare. I was studying fashion design at the time so working with children was really not the path I had expected for myself.
Looking back now, I see that it was fate that brought me to this job because it was necessary that I meet her.
A few months into this job, Melina started working at the daycare. She was very shy, and I could tell that I intimidated her.
Back then, I was fierce and reckless. I was a force collecting the love and affection, to make up for the lack of love I had for myself. I was drawn to Melina’s insecurities, there for me to eat up and feed my ego.
Looking back now, I cannot exactly pinpoint the moment I let myself get to such an ugly state. After a long series of unfortunate events, I had hardened my heart, truly believing that I was just protecting myself. The truth was though, I was dying a little more each day.
Life, however, works in interesting ways. It throws you a life jacket in the most unlikely ways and sometimes, those jackets are the people you least expect.
That day, when Melina finally gathered up the courage to speak to me; the day I invited her out - and I didn’t know this at the time - but this was life presenting me a life vest, and me finally taking hold.
I didn’t understand love until you came into my life. You were the wrecking ball tearing down the hardened walls around my heart and by the time I could grasp what it was, it was already too late. You changed me and I fell in love with you.
God must have sent you. Only He could have given you the patience and gentle heart to deal with me.
Throughout our friendship we laughed, we fought, we played, we yelled and cried but the one thing never changed; you loved me. When I pushed things a little too far, to drive you away, you remained steadfast and you loved me. When I finally trusted you with my heart, you pushed me to start putting the pieces back together. You taught me to love without fear and all I wanted was to protect you from the world.
Melina, you always tell people that I’m your backbone, your rock. You tell them that I’m strong and I’m fearless. The truth is, Melina, you are my rock and it is because of you that I strong. I couldn’t jump off the cliff and fly if I didn’t have my solid footing.
I jump for you, Melina, so that you can see that anything is possible. I jump,so that you are never scared to jump too; to know I will always be right under you, watching and ready to catch you.
Melina, you are my friend, my lover, my kindred spirit; I know it wasn’t easy for you to watch me go, but don’t be sad. There is nothing, no mountain or ocean that can keep us apart.
So, until we meet again my friend ... live passionately.
Love always, Amalia