A little over two years ago I met a boy like no other boy I've met before. I was in this small vegan restaurant on my lunch break with my boss when he and his brother sat down next to us and they all started to chat. He kept looking at me, asking me questions, but I couldn't get more than one or two words out at a time. I was so shy my cheeks were flushed, like embarrassing high school girl in awe kind of flushed. As they got up to leave he reached into his pocket, looked me straight in the eyes, and handed me his business card. His gaze was so piercing my stomach felt as if I was in a car going down a steep hill.
On our first date I met him at this little bar he suggested. Man was I nervous ! I walked in and there he was sitting at a high round table at the back of the bar with a scotch in hand. I walked towards him, he got up to kiss me hello and pulled out the chair so I can sit.
We got to talking and the conversation just seemed to flow so perfectly. When he spoke I could feel all the emotions and passion in his stories. He spoke about his life, his work, his adventurous and after hours of talking and a few drinks he leaned in and kissed me. Then he looked at me and smiled, it was a childlike smile and full of vulnerability and that my friends was the beginning and the end of everything.
If ever you've witnessed a forest fire you would know that all it takes is a spark and in seconds everything is up in flames. As you watch it burn you can't help but feel so incredibly small. The flames get bigger, taller, vicious and more intense. It makes you wonder; how can something so magnificently beautiful cause such horrible damage it only leaves ashes behind. You try to put out the fire that's spreading but your pale of water is nothing compared to it's flames.
He was my wildfire; magnificent, intense, scary. He pushed my limits father than I ever imagined possible and I am stronger today because of him. Which brings us to the end of our story. You see, I am no longer the girl I was before the fire and so I cannot go back to the beginning, I cannot restart because I no longer belong there.
I dust the ashes off my clothes and as I look into the horizon I see a sunrise. I set my pale down and start walking... I'm not sure what's next but I'm sure it will be exciting, it always is.