"When nothing is planned, anything is possible"
I've always loved this quote. It's been on a sticky note on my mirror along with a few others for as long as I can remember. But what happens when you've planned everything and nothing goes according to plan? Oh ya ... they call that LIFE.
The plan was perfect! Nothing out of the ordinary; advance in my career, make more money, get married, move into house with the white picket fence, get dog. Seemed easy enough. I played by all the rules. But guess what ? There are no rules! That contract you thought you made with God, it doesn't exist.
I was turning 30 in a few weeks and dying a slow and painful death at work with no room for advancement in position or salary. I knew I wanted a career change of some sort but it wasn't easy finding something. I was unhappy and something needed to be done. A few days later I finally gathered up the courage to quit my comfortable job. On my final day at work I got the worst fever ever. The kind where you catch a glimpse of yourself in the bathroom mirror and wonder how it's possible for you to look as horrible as you feel. When I got home I took some night time Nyquill and fell asleep on the couch. At around 4:00am I woke up to my bf coming home from a boys night. He sat next to me and told me the relationship was over.
Ladies, you know those select few moments in your life that you loose all control of your logical thoughts and go bat shit crazy. Well, I had a moment, and let me tell you, it was epic. I decided then and there I was packing all my things and leaving TONIGHT. Between packing my things and the yelling, oh so much yelling and sweating from that terrible fever I'm pretty sure I looked like something out of a horror movie. I ripped picture of us together in the house and when he told me to stop I said "You don't deserve any memories of me".
Not my proudest moment, I know ! In case you are wondering at this point in my in my story... the answer is yes I can sometimes be a little melodramatic. But all artists are, we call it passion, yes passion !!! I got home to my apartment and just sat in the dark. No tears, no nothing, all I thought was; what now?
Life will always throw us curve balls, all we have control over is how we react to everything that comes our way. I've never been an ordinary girl and I am not one for boring. When I had made this "plan" I wasn't listening to my heart. That's not to say I don't want those things but I was more focused on the timeline then my journey and life is all about the journey.
I didn't like the story I was in, so it was time to change it. Traveling always helps me so I packed my suitcase and decided to go to Greece. I have to say from all my trips, this one changed my life. I stayed with family I met for the first time who showed me so much love I felt at home and made new friends whom I connected with instantly it felt as if we knew each other for years.
Something about the air in Greece, the ocean that goes on for miles, the simplicity of life, and just like that I could breathe again. My time there helped me to remember what's important. I was reminded that we need find balance in what we do, that moments with people we love are precious and we should be present in those moments and that loving ourselves is necessary to be happy the rest is simply details. The trials and tribulations and plans that take left turns, those are just bumps in the road that you will pass. There is no need to look back, after all you're not going that way.